多夢

已經出國快要六年了

恩..快六年了..

還記得剛出國時複雜的心情    整天只想回台灣而無理取鬧

還記得剛出國時天天固定都會打越洋電話給同學

還記得剛出國時每天都還是過著台灣的時間

還記得..好多好多

至今都仍會在夢中出現

夢中混雜著現在的環境 過往的回憶

有時候夢醒時分    心情會很低落

接著跑去找室友 開始用英文跟他分析為什麼我老是會做這樣的夢

已經是遙不可及的記憶了  是些平常連發呆都不會想的事情

夢裡卻會如此熟悉

還是會想 如果沒有出國的話

如果心智成熟一點的話

如果..如果

不過 如果沒出國

我也八成沒機會碰上現在"身旁"的你

雖然不是真的在身旁....

反正就是這樣

很多事情

還是只能靠夢來回味

來完成

是吧

It's been a long time

為了關閉回憶  不再回來這裡

如今人事全非  也進入了另外一個階段

談了場最不想碰的遠距離

辛苦    虛幻    甚至懷疑自己最初的目的

也許只是不想再碰 所以選了傷害最小的方式

但這樣講不公平 因為也是認真的

就算心怎麼動盪

也要堅持 就算只是為了堅持而堅持

我回來了

人生的軌道

New song update:

許慧欣  不哭了

to the one at the end of the horizon.

So going back to Taiwan in few hours

finally get most of the things done before I leave

it's not a trip for fun

at least I don't think so

but I hope after I come back

somehow my life could start over again in Toronto

hope I am no longer a guy that someone refuses to look at

I won't change

but I will learn how to correct myself

Wings are too small to cover the whole world

but large enough to protect what I care

Peace!

Yeah finally get my partner card....after almost 4 weeks

and a T-shirt:D, cool!

there are still so many things needed to be done before i leave toronto

especially sponsor thing....hope i have more time to run

try to keep my mind controlled

don't want to lose control again

what happens, happens

this song, by Sammi, called ±Ë¤£±o§A, long long time ago, from a girl I'd valued the most in my life

after so many years, when it plays

feeling's still there

the world changed, but the heart stayed the same

or

I just can't bury the memories

a loser who can't step forward but only looks to the past

maybe I am